I'm not lost

I've been MIA for a bit now it's only cause I have a new job and I've been trying to get used to the hours (7-4 I used to do 8-5) and the drive (I went from 15 minutes to an hour away) and the job (I went from a much more technologically advanced company to one that is still in major developments which makes things a little bit harder) in general. I did about I don't know maybe 4 lo's I haven't scanned them but I did take pictures of them and I'll post tonight after I get home (whenever that might be lol). At least I've done something but they aren't that detailed but I like them just the same Most of the paper is the prize pack that I received from Scrapping the Music. I haven't even looked at a challenge blog in almost 2 weeks ... that's bad for me because I'm usually the one stalking them. You know that lurker that is always online but you don't know who it is ha-ha. Yeah that's me.
Tonight I have a business dinner with my old job. My ex boss is leaving and they are having a going away dinner for it I hope I don't forget about it on my way home. That would be weird. One person thinks they are going to try and offer me my job back but I highly doubt it and do I really want to go back to that uncertainty I don't think so. I need stability sure it would be nice to have a home office, sure it would be nice to get more money, sure it would be nice to cut the commute down but what if it’s only a temporary position that will be eliminated in the near future. Like no thanks buddy you know. If they do it would just have to be something that would take a while to think about. And I would feel soooo unbelievably guilty because I just accepted this job could I honestly without giving it a shot say goodbye to it? Ughh I hate being put in positions like this between a rock and a hard place. Why couldn’t they think of this before I said I was leaving because back then they couldn’t give three flying fucks. We shall see hopefully it’s going to be a good dinner cause I’m just angry just thinking about them even contemplating asking me back.

I need to get some work done and go to the bathroom and go take lunch so ttyl.